sigh... you know, sometimes its hard to think of something when your thinking of too many things.. i was thinking a while ago about things that i've done in the past, and i couldn't really think of that thing that i wanted to think about.. this thing that i wanted to think about is, i guess, already out of my thoughts.. because all the things that i've thought about are starting to fade.. do you think that thoughts of things in your thoughts fade away?.. i heard this song by pearl jam which ends with the phrase "hearts and thoughts they fade.. fade away..." its somehow confusing.. but i guess it is true.. oh.. what a gloomy night.. so silent.. so sad.. what to say.. what to say?.. clink! goes the lid of my zippo lighter.. sscrreesshh.. goes the roller to the flint.. i light one up.. and i ponder over nothingness.. sigh..