What’s wrong with me today? Last night I slept early... I went into a deep state of slumber… I feel like my dream or my nightmare has something to do with this…this madness…but the problem is I can’t remember that woolgather… if I had one, that is... I felt very strange when I woke up... I don’t know if I’m sick or just plain gloomy... I can’t think straight... I feel so uninspired... I’m afraid… I’m afraid that if I stay like this I’ll drive my self insane… I feel so empty… so alone… but I have so much fervor that’s trapped within me, and this strange feeling… this odd day… is holding me back for some reason… unintelligible… yes…